“As you walk and eat and travel, be where you are. Otherwise you will miss most of your life.”
― Gautama Buddha
Sometimes it’s desperately difficult to live in the moment. What with the day to day grind always pushing it’s way in, trying to capture and hold hostage the spirit that makes life so full and worth living. Some days I find it difficult to shake – the feeling of need to do more. But then we find beaches, and flowers, and sparkly nail polish on little fingers and goats that nibble our fingers and chew on our hair and friends and laughter – even in the most difficult moments there are grilled cheese sandwiches and museums and boxes of free mandarins on our doorstep and sand between our toes – and I stop and breathe and remember… this is it… even in the teary, ugly, vulnerable and difficult moments… this is it.
I went to see my doctor the other day to talk about my mental and physical health (because it’s all linked… ya know) – and she told me to quit my job and go work in a cafe and have more fun and laugh more and not take on any more responsibility in my already responsibility laden life… she said, ‘if not now, then when?’ I laughed, not because I’m planning to quit my job, but because so much of what she said is so true… not because I’m going to take her advice (today anyway) but because we understood each other.
Life isn’t waiting for something else to happen. It isn’t about what is around the corner, it isn’t about the decisions I’m making or the choices I’m rolling around in my head. Life isn’t next week or next year or three years from now when I’ll have my shit together. It isn’t when I’m thinner or more motivated or when I meditate more or practice yoga more regularly. It isn’t when I fall in love again or if/when I grow my family… Life isn’t any of those things. It’s happening right now. We are in it. Every minute of every day.
This is it.
This is our life.
Isn’t it beautiful?